I cannot remember, your voice, the essence of you - gone. I am unspeakably happy and sad
As simple as that.
As if I had not existed, not truly, like a dream.
Unbelievable, but real.
As if I had failed to absorb and retain its content.
Your voice, so beautiful, so unspeakably familiar, yet so unknown.
So very strange and so intimate.
I feel like crying.
I do cry. I do laugh.
To be moved so deeply cannot be.
I am flooded by fear and happiness.
So difficult to live with you.
I am unspeakably happy and sad.